Last night I went to counseling. I hadn’t been since the beginning of summer. I think having my husband home most nights helps. I think working on the adoption helps. I think being busy helps. But, I’m glad I went yesterday. I was having a rough day, a”woe is me” day. I haven’t had one of those in awhile.
So, we went over the grief cycle/circle. I feel like I’ve gone around and around and around the cycle. More days than not now, I’m creating new meaning. Adoption is our new meaning. Awareness of cancer screening is our new meaning. Last night, I dreamt. A familiar face was in the background of my dreams…not talking, not acting, just watching. I awoke this morning rested, peaceful and happy. Our baby is out there and many people (on earth and above) are watching over our sweet baby and our sweet expectant family. This is going to be a wild ride. We are ready!!!