Hard truths and easy living….

Yesterday led to a lot of realizations.  It was a crazy day, as most seem to be.  I was heading to Bloomington to visit a friend and get my hair done.  I was 4 miles away and my car broke down.  Well, old me would have broken down in tears about life being over and it’s the worst day of my life, etc. etc.  New me, picked up the phone, made plans (with help from a friend), had my car towed and sat tight until my husband got off work to come fix my car.  It ended up being a FANTASTIC day.  I got my hair done beautifully, I got to visit the Magic Kroger, I got HOURS of visiting in with one of my dearest friends who I rarely get to see and I got to spend some precious time with two sweet, sweet, SWEET little girls.  Did I say that it was a FANTASTIC day?!?!

So on the LOOOOOONG drive home, I got to thinking.  Before, I was living my life like a robot, going through the motions.  I was happy, or so I thought.  But now, oh now, I feel sadness from the top of my head to the tips of my toes but I also feel joy from the top of my head to the tips of my toes too.  It’s a beautiful, amazing thing.  What made me think about this?  A sunset.  When people go on vacation, especially to Florida, they all want to go home with a picture of that sunset.  Really, a picture?! Everyone is going to say it looks beautiful but the picture doesn’t do it justice.  The drive home was long and windy but I enjoyed it.  Driving through the hollers, the lightning bugs were like magic.  Then, as I was coming up a hill, the tops of the trees looked like they were on fire.  The sunset over the cornfields and farms was just absolutely breathtaking.  There it was, that unimaginable joy for a great day.

What I’m trying to say is that life has handed me lemons and I am sooooo glad that it did.  Because without that, I would never have felt the joy that I feel now.  Last year at this time, I didn’t care if I woke up or lived to see tomorrow.  It just didn’t seem worth it.  Now, I can’t WAIT to wake up.  What adventures will today bring?  I’m so glad that my car broke down.   I’m so glad that I had to throw that to do list out the window and just be.  If my car hadn’t broken down, I wouldn’t have stayed for sweet Bellamy to fall asleep on my chest.  At that moment, all in the world was right and I was EXACTLY where I needed to be.

So, this is our story.  It’s not a fairy tale.  I’d like to think of it as some kind of dark and twisted romantic comedy.  I’ll get back with who the cast of characters would be.  But don’t think I don’t have a list in my head….Melissa McCarthy, Dan Stephens, Doris Roberts, Hugh Jackman. 🙂

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